Quarter to Eternity

Twenty bullets for this gun.
I load the clip, but you don't run.
One is chambered as I cock;
I flick off the safety lock.
Still you haven't moved an inch,
And I see your eyelid flinch.
As I level at your nose,
I can hear you curl your toes.
I sneer a perfect sneer, and then
I flick the safety on again;
Crick my neck and check my grip,
Raise my finger to my lip.
And with a grimace, I declare:
"The situation's just no fair.
For you see, I've done for you
All the things you've asked me to;
Sent so many to their grave.
'Sit and listen, bitch, behave'.
Yes, I've done it all, my friend,
Except the deed that brings my end.
And that is why I've brought you here;
Because, the thing that you most fear,
Why, I cannot have my fill!
I love the eyes of those I kill.
You see, at first, they open wide,
(The reflex shortly will subside)
And then a look of haunted calm,
When first they taste Gilead's balm.
This world is all adverse effects;
I wish to journey to the Next.
Indeed, that's all I'm missing now.
Today, I wish to get it. How?
My friend, it's simple, if you please:
This trigger here just needs a squeeze.
To take one's own life isn't wrong,
When you've been patient all along.
Of course, I'll miss you when I go...
But we can be together, though!
You and I, My Leige and Me:
A duo in Eternity!
Spare no more Earthly seconds, then,
And soon I shall see you, again."
With that, I make a quickened stride,
And stand myself to your right side.
Across your shoulder rests my arm,
You know what's coming; brief alarm.
I press the barrel to your head;
A click, a bang: we both fall, dead.